Our House Is A Very Very Fine House

I have big dreams. There are certain dreams I've been believing and trusting God for for a long time. There are times I get discouraged. There are times I want to give up. Those times expose my humanity.

Currently my husband and I are asking God for a house. It has always been our dream even before marriage. I still firmly believe, one day it will happen. One day I'll be turning the key in a place I own and not where I rent.

Until my dream happens, I go to open houses. I like to go and envision things I'd want or not want in our home. Moreover, I go as a symbol of faith. I'm saying God I trust you can do this for us. You could give me this very house. However today, God threw a challenge at me.

Today my husband and I went to an open house for a place we really love. It wasn't our first visit, but our third. Before we got there I found myself stalling. I realized I was taking the long way in hopes we'd miss it. I asked my husband if he still wanted to go. Without hesitation he said yes. "Darn!" Not the answer I wanted to hear. Begrudgingly, I drove to the house.

Upon arrival, I parked in the most ridiculous manner. It looked like a 4th grader parked our car. Yet as soon as we went in, I heard God speak, "Am I not big enough? ". Every room I walked in I heard God repeat "Am I not big enough? ". Finally I sat in the sunroom. I imagined squirrels running by and birds chirping. I imagined sitting with a hot cup of coffee reading my Bible. I allowed myself to dream.

"Am I not big enough? " Simply, is God big enough to fulfill my dreams? Is God big enough to do the impossible or do I need to minimize my dream, lower my standards and adjust my expectations? Sometimes I believe God purposefully defies our doubts to prove He's God. However, I believe He may delay some answers until our faith adjusts to the answer. God doesn't want us to walk around just content to collect the scraps that fall from His table. He's reserved a seat for us so, we have access to His ear. God wants to do the impossible yet, I can fall short believing it for myself. Finally I answered God's question. I said "Yes! You are big enough. "

Ephesians 3:20 "Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think."